I've just spent the last half hour reading blogs, and boy do you all write so well! I'm feeling like I'm so un-profound. Some of you write the most amazing insightful things with a beautiful command of the English language. You are having such thoughtfulness. I, on the other hand, feel like this is the doldrums. I do realize I am writing this blog for me, with no shame, no apologies for what it says. It is an honor to have others take their time to read it, so I sometimes feel I should offer more than "The gym was great" or "I love my trainer". Honestly though, I feel like I'm figuring it all out, one day at a time and what works for me doesn't necessarily work for someone else. All I can do is talk about my daily experience. I know why *I* overate the first 35 years of my life, but I can't really give over to general assumptions about anyone else. Sometimes blogs are convicting, but then I step back and think "They are in the fire too! Why are they telling me what to do!" I have this thing about certain famous pastors who give very easy platitudes. I literally walked out of bible study one day because I couldn't take the pastor's preaching. I cannot accept someone's condemnation of my actions if they have not lived the life I've lived. That's why I love Jesus. He doesn't condemn, just forgives, repeatedly.
So I can't tell you how to overcome this struggle, only what I am doing to overcome. It's not very profound, just my life. And sometimes - a lot of times, it's just boring!
3 weeks ago