Yesterday was one of those days. I just got depressed. And my eating reflected that.
My kids got their report cards on Friday and I have one daughter who has the best teacher and another who has an average teacher. The average teacher doesn't give comments and my daughters grades (in K it is Beginning, Developing, Secure, Excels) stayed the same since last quarter. It just put me in a funk. I try very hard not to compare my kids, and the fact that one had 13 grades higher than the other made me realize that it is the teacher, not the kids, because while one excels in some things, it is not 13 other things! But when one kid is not getting the attention and love of a great kindergarten teacher and the other does, it makes me feel bad. I'm proactive, I've emailed her teacher asking more specific questions, my daughter says she treats everyone the same and that she is nice. I think that as a Mom, I want always what is best for my girls and clearly one is getting the short end of the stick and it is frustrating.
Also looking for a church is hard. (or maybe I'm just making it hard). My fear of people is not unfounded, but my friend reminds me that there are sinful people everywhere. This I know. But I have higher expectations. I believe that if you are living for Jesus than that flows out of your heart. It is evident in your life that even though you aren't perfect, you are earnestly seeking to be a better person by becoming more like Him - and you aren't mean! We are going to try another church this weekend. I'll keep you posted!
So in order to try to get out of this "mood" I stayed up til 1:30AM cleaning my desk and getting our tax stuff ready. Often if I wake up with less to do in the AM I get going more easily. And so far, not too bad. I've not eaten any crap and I'm feeling okay. I've got to anchor myself quick or I'll be going down that slippery slope of bad eating again....
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