I am allowing myself vacation. I am not beating myself up over eating french fries. I am making healthy choices when available. I allowed myself to eat half of a white chocolate peanut butter cup from the Chocolate Factory store we went. See...I refuse to pay $10 for lettuce. So unless a restaurant has an amazingly described tasty salad, I'm not eating them.
Here's a sad thing. In reality I am still fat. I think because I focus so much on the positives and I have lost almost 30 lbs that I just "think thin". But I saw this photo from our trip and I got sad.Because it reminded me so much I have left to do. I know I'm on my way, but sometimes the emotions hit me of all the work I have ahead of me.
Some people will say that if I have so much left than I shouldn't make "allowances". Well there's a little truth to that, but I know myself. If I stress too much about the process, I'll HATE the process, and I won't be able to endure longterm. I'm tired right now...haven't slept much the last couple of days which is making me more emotional for sure.
We'll be out of Canada tomorrow and back in the states, on our way to the pilgrims!
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