It hit hard. I'm working through it. Holidays are tough because they drudge up a TON of emotions that I'm not good at dealing with. My K tells me I need to focus on the family of 4 we are and not get worked up about the rest of it. It's just hard when there is noone in either of families that are terribly interested in our lives or that of our kids. We get the obligatory christmas card/presents but then we don't hear from anyone until a birthday. One of the reasons I wanted to move from New England was that it was too hard to live so close to my family and have them be so uninterested. It helped to move so far away, but it still is sad.
Only one person noticed I had lost weight when I was on vacation, and it was a person who sees me an hour twice a year. Someone who hadn't even known I was working out. I weigh 40 lbs less than the last time I was there and noone I'm related to even noticed.
I'm coming out the other side now. I made my bed and took a shower. I'm feeling less burdened. I probably won't hit the gym today but soon.
So, if you are a praying person, I could use a few just to get out of this funk.
3 weeks ago