Feelin' Groovy!

I'm feeling groovy tonight. A very dear friend tonight told me how proud he was of my efforts to get healthy and that he was just very thrilled about how I was doing. It was unsolicited praise which made it that much sweeter. I'm not doing it for the accolades, but it was nice to hear. No one except my hubby has noticed much of a physical change yet, but I do. My shirts are all looser. I can actually see places on my body that are thinner. Kind of weird but there are indents where there used to be blobs of fat. :)

Today I did 20 minutes cardio, interval training and then I worked on the biceps and triceps and abs.

I've finally gotten around to an actual Work out schedule. I've been going wherever the wind took me in order to get a better idea of which classes I liked, but its time to buckle down.

Here's how it looks:
Monday Nights - Cardio on the Elliptical
Tuesday - Spin class and Body Pump Class
Wednesday - Cardio
Thursday - Body Pump Class
Friday - Body Flow (Taichi/Yoga) - Cardio on Elliptical
Saturday - Tennis or Cardio
Sunday- Day of Rest.

I might do a Boot Camp Class with a personal trainer on MWF night for the month of October. I enjoy watching what they are doing when I'm working out on the floor. We'll see.

Happy trails.

Binge.

Today I have binged. This is what I did:

Lunch: Ham sandwich on Double Fiber Bread with Tomato, Basil, Lettuce
Carrots
Grapes

I was full I think..but then crazy binge woman came out. I then ate
3 pieces of celery with peanut butter (I scoop the peanut butter with the celery)
2 bananas
6 chips a hoy cookies.
2 small pretzel rods

While this does not compare to my former binges (bags of potato chips, packages of raw hot dogs, cartons of ice cream, boxes of little debbie snacks), it is a version of it.

I'm a little sad about it. I have not been drinking enough water and i'm wondering if that had something to do with it. I mentioned before that salt can be a trigger. I wonder since I haven't been drinking whether the salt in the lunch meat triggered me. I don't know. I do know that I was NOT hungry.

I went to bible study this morning and here was an interesting thought from the lecture:
In the book of John, Jesus healed a man who had been lame for 38 years. The teacher gave this application. It is never too late for a new chance in life. It doesn't matter how long you've been damaged or hurt, there's always hope for change. The man had been healed after 38 years. His life was renewed. Ours can be too.

The Biggest Loser

Once I watched this show and vowed not to watch it again because the challenge they placed in front of all these people was 2 hours of eating any fattening thing they wanted and people did! I thought it was the cruelest, meanest thing at the time. But I think I've now figured out that I shouldn't have been angry at the show, but at the losers who thought they could tow the line and still lose weight. It really doesn't work like that. Sometimes, if luck has it, we can binge for two hours on everything bad thing and it kick starts our metabolism. But, these guys didn't need it. They wanted $$$ and were willing to sacrifice their spot on the game and their lifestyle for it. Would I do that? I would like to think no. I would rather be the big winner than take a small prize. My guess is that every one of those contestants thought they deserved to gorge on the food.

I decided to watch it again, from the beginning to see if it motivated me. I cried so much for these folks. First, though I was happy because I am not and have not ever been over 400 lbs. Secondly, the women that were my weight didn't look as bad as I thought I looked. Overweight, of course, but not gross. I was not a big fan of Jillian cursing at the contestants, although this is part of "good" television they believe. I think if someone was yelling at me like that I wouldn't need F-bombs to make me feel worse. I mean, I'm not watching COPS. And to hear that out of a woman just makes me cringe. It is amazing the amount of weight these folks lose in a week. I cannot believe that is healthy. Everything I know about nutrition and exercise tells me that weight loss that fast is dangerous.

I am rooting for Abby & Allen. Abby lost her husband and 2 kids in a car accident two years ago. Allen is a firefighter. They both did very well the first week. I do need to say too that I praise God that I can walk a mile without feeling like I'm going to die. It stressed me out that 2 contestants needed hospitalization for it. I am kind of mad they didn't give the contestants water for the run. I know it was only a mile, but still this seems kind of cruel. (Maybe they had water stations that we didn't see, like at marathons?) But I can do almost any kind of exercise for an hour. And I don't need to keel over.

I may watch again. Some of it makes me angry, but the stories hit home. The emotions are insightful. The more I learn about myself the better I will be and the more I will be able to accomplish in this journey of the overweight life.